Church/Religion

So this week in my Humanities class... Intro to World Lit... we are reading a bunch of different stories from different times and different cultures, all of them are about creation. God/God's and how the world and everything on it were created. Cool... except I've never had any formal training on religion... like ever. I have run into this problem more then once, and I have always said that I wanted to get some formal knowledge about religion... but I think it's time. I really want to be able to keep up and know what the heck everyone is talking about when they are talking about God and Jesus and everything like that. I really feel stupid sometimes when people are talking about religion, or when they are talking about holidays and stuff. I don't know what any of the holidays are for... other then gifts and family bonding. I feel like I missed out on a huge education experience growing up, and being at the age that I am (and wanting children before I die) I want to get some knowledge under my belt. I decided a few years back that I would take my future children to church starting at an early age, so that they would grow up in said church and feel comfortable there and actually want to learn there. This being said, it would be a good idea if I actually have a church that I felt comfortable in... I mean if I want my children to learn there I should at least believe it, right? I don't want to force my future children into a religion though, I am very adamant on everyone having their own beliefs and their own systems of faith, I just want to supply them with a formal background training. That way they are making their own theories up with some knowledge, and unlike me aren't just basing everything on how they feel. So... I am on a search... for the perfect church for me. I am looking for something that isn't going to make me feel like a hypocrite... I am for gay rights... I am up in the air on abortions, I am mainly Pro-Life but I do think that in some circumstances (rape, incest, medical issues) that for some people abortions are ok... I am not so kean on the bible being black and white (meaning like everything the bible says is a MUST)... I don't really know how I feel about the bible I've never read it, maybe I should. lol. I am just at a point in my life where I think maybe I could use a little faith in a higher power... so... I am on a hunt for the perfect church. Wish me luck!

THEND

2009 sucks.

Uhm... wow. So much for blogging in 2009. lol. I think it's because my life completely went to shit that I stopped. Well... since the last blog... husband and dog moved back to AZ (getting a divorce when we can afford it)... mom lost her job... dad was in jail, now rehab, maybe prison?... we lost a dog (today omg lucy come homeeeee!).... and i have a boyfriend!? EEK! I haven't been dieting or exercising really, but I have already lost about 15 lbs this year. so that's good. I need to eat healthier though, I am sick ALL the time. like once a month I am dying. poop.

soo... Chris and bailey moved back to the good ol Arizona. they are making their way back to a normal life... and i am here.. trying to make my way back to a normal life. i miss my chicken nugget soo much it hurts sometimes (bailey).

the car dealership mom worked at was bought out and they got rid of like everyone. sooo two weeks shes been without a job..

dad drama EXPLODED.... i called the cops.. they completely went WAY overboard and pressed the totally wrong charges... i called the cops to save him form hurting himself... but they charged him with aggravated assault with a fire arm and domestic abuse. wtf. bah. at least now hes in rehab and hopefully getting himself back on track.

my mother is a retard... our chihuahua/dachshund Lucy likes to run away when you let her out. well mom let her out this morning and she bolted.. and we haven't seen her in almost 12 hours! OMG! LUCY COME HOMEEEE! My little brother is really upset.

David is having issues in school because of our sucky ass 2009.. and now lucy is gone... hes going to die. lol

Shaun and Alison were here with Landen and their possible twins (in her belly)! I enjoyed that we don't get to hang out a lot and Landen is freakin hilarious. lol.

I failed one of my classes... sweeeet. 1,600$ wasted. yay. but I passed the other class with the highest grade I've had in awhile! so that's good? lol

Boyfriend!? John... Jb.. Jeebs... many more.. haha. That sounds like I'm dating a million people, it's all one person and he makes my heart flutter. I haven't met him yet but I pretty much couldn't live without him. He helps me function through the days. I want to slap him sometimes... and jump him (hehe)... but I always love him.

Ok... that's an update... just because the last one I posted wasn't up to date at ALLLLLLL. lol. lata.